Thinspo

missmairaisabel:

I’m obsessed with not getting fat, not with being skinny

I’m obsessed with not getting fat, not with being skinny

I WISH:
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[] I could stop being anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I LOVE:
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[x] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic/ednos
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE:
[x] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes
[] I have many scars
[x] I wish my hair was a different color
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x] I have/had braces
[x] I wear glasses
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[] I have more than 2 piercings
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[] I have freckles

SEXUALITY:
[] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[x] I am a cuddler
[] I’ve kissed in the rain
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger
[x] I have kissed a stranger

BAD TIMES:
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[] I regularly drink
[] I can’t swallow pills
[x] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset
[] I take anti-depressants
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[] I’m addicted to self harm
[] I’ve attempted suicide
[x] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me
[] I’m at my thinnest
[] I’m at my biggest
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[] I’ve fasted
[] I’ve taken diet pills
[] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged
[x] I exercise
[] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve done:
[] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol

[x] Pain killers
[x] Sleeping pills
[] Anti-depressants
[] Ecstasy
[] LSD
[] Mushrooms
[] Speed
[] Cocaine
[] Other

HABITS:
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I count calories
[x] I’ve had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food
[] I want to be this way
[x] I don’t want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[] I am in treatment
[x] I’m doing this for me
[] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself